Ok, not quite that optomistic, but today is better.  I actually did stop crying yesterday afternoon, but I think that’s because I ran out of tears! Or because S and I talked and in order to have him anywhere in my life, I need to realize that he doesn’t know what he is going to do.  That doesn’t change the fact that I love him.  I’ve tried to change that fact over the years–doesn’t work.  Stop, before the tears come.

Busy day today with work.  Reports, meetings, problems.  Hustle and bustle to keep my mind busy.