The title sounds like I have a list of things I want to do someday.  I don’t, really.  Not many.  Anyway, that’s not why it’s titled that.  It’s “someday I will stop crying, will get my ‘wish’, will be back together with my soul mate.  Ah, soul mate.  Yes or no?  Maybe not for everyone. Definately for me.  You know, high school sweetheart and all?  Yep.  Except 22 years after high school and 17 years after divorce I still believe it. 

I used to think blogs were stupid.  Why would you put your information out there for the world to see? In fact, I patently refuse to let my children blog or chat online.  Do as I say not as I do! Actually, I used to journal and write letters and not send them, but since the arthritis is bad, it’s actually easier to type than to write, and if I blog rather than just journal on one computer, I can access it anytime.  And I really don’t have to worry about the world seeing what I write, because, let’s be honest, who cares about what I have to say? 

I actually, for the moment, have stopped crying.  I’m sure tonight it will return, and if I think too long, it will return.  I don’t kid myself and think it’s actually gone, it’s just hiding 5 feet away behind a really small tree, ready to come out at any point!